Was It Worth It?

This is an entry from May 2nd, 2008.
I hid it for a while.
Then I thought that this would be the perfect place to place it :]
Enjoy :D

Bear with me, I'm scared to death.
At today's last AB Samahan meeting of the semester, our Political Affair and Cultural Affair Coordinators addressed the Americans influence on the Philippines back in the early 1900s ...after they drove the Spanish away. At least... according to some political comics I ...took with me as I left the meeting...

what? They were left on the floor and were probably gonna be recycled anyway.

From my understanding, some would say the American's influence was negative. Because although they gave us an education and helped our civilization, the way it came about were through burnt villages, destroyed communities and over thousands of slaughtered Filipinos. In opposition, some would say it was positive. Because asides from ... force-feeding a better education and civilization upon the Filipinos, it's obvious that our generation today is well better off. So if it wasn't for the occurence of our history, we wouldn't be where we are today... populating San Diego.. Holluh. We broke into discussion groups and asked ourselves

Do we like where we are now? and
What the Americans did to us,
Was it worth it?

I didn't speak up.
Even when I was asked to.
I was being more observant and in admiration of how the coordinators presented their information than actually understanding their information, not to mention being a bit nervous cause I was part of a discussion group with someone I highly respected. Took me a while, but I started to generate an opinion in my mind, jotted and organized my thoughts in my handy dandy "eco-friendly" notebook holluh times two, and as my heart pounded... was about ready to express myself ...wwwhen they called the discussion to a close...

I guess I'm not one to sit,
Listen,
Absorb and
Express my understanding and opinion right away...
Unless I'm with people I'm comfortable with or something...
I find expressing myself on the spot quite scary.
Believe me, I was pretty nervous to speak up.
Even for the group discussion last week
And even when I was paying for banquet tickets.
Banquet tickets!
Cause usually when I'm nervous and speak right away
My words seem... scrambled.

But that's okay.
Because
I-have-this :]
And some jacked political comics.
I've had time to think this out.
Last night after watching Iron Man
And this whole morning...booya!

Well I definitely like where I am today.
Well-supported in oh-so-many desired ways
Discounting what your mind in the gutter may be thinking.
I'm sure I'm not the only one, either.
So, I think it was all worth it.
In fact, I know it was all worth it.

There is no gain if there is no sacrifice.
And even if it means the death of others
I believe that just gives us more of a reason
To live our lives to the fullest.
Like this one guy kind of said in the movie Iron Man...
"Let's not waste others' sacrifices."
And the worst thing we can do, is forget this all happened.