She Wants Me To Be A Housewife

My mom wants me to be a housewife.

Okay, she hasn't verbally said so. But I just know so.

There have been so many incidents that make it evident. Like on usual days when I'm reading or studying in the living room (that I have claimed as my territory because there's no point displaying a room if no one gets invited to my house), my mom will randomly complain, "How come you never do anything? You're so lazy." Most days, when she comes home and I'm sitting in the living room (it's always a coincidence that she finds me there) she'll greet me and ask, "So what did you do all day, nothing?"

And usually when the room is quiet, when she's in the family room and I'm in the living room with earphones on, she'll yell until she gets my attention and then ask, "When are you going to clean your [car/room/bathroom/laundry/brother's room (brother's room!!!)/etc.]?"

Okay, the whole cleaning thing I understand. But how can I be doing nothing when she can clearly see that I'm studying?!

I noticed the only time she'll praise me is if I clean something. But even then, if I clean one thing, she'll ask, "Did you clean this, too?"

Like no joke, this criticizing ritual of hers happens at least 7 days a week.

And every now and then when I walk down stairs and she's cooking, she'll suggest, "You should learn how to cook."

She doesn't even like it when I leave the house and she doesn't like me inviting people to the house. Oh! She also thinks it's shameful for me to go to other people's houses because I'd be in their home and she has this wild idea that I'll sabotage it. "Just stay home," she'd say.

Back in the day, she wanted me to major in anything that involves the medical field. Her main reason was so I can help out the family.

I think in my mom's world, the only way to be successful in life is to do something in the medical field and/or be a housewife. She's always cleaning and cooking, even when she doesn't have to. Like seriously, our downstairs is ridiculously clean. But what the heck is the point? Our floors don't have to be that shiny. The kitchen, living room and family room doesn't have to be that clean. Anyway, I know you're very self-conscious mom, but no one's gonna judge us depending on how clean our house is, especially if no one comes over!

Oh another thing to mention, we throw away food from the fridge all the time.

Not only that, but I think my mom wants me to be passive as well. She always tells me to be quiet in public. And just the whole Philippines experience... geez. Don't even look at your daughter when she's speaking from her heart.

I think I'm f*cked up in the head. I've grown up to be everything my mom and relatives didn't want me to be. What the hell is my problem?

Well whatever it is, I don't really mind.

I love who I am :]

And just to let you know mom, I do most of the things you want me to do when you're not around.