My concerned friends, mentors and advisers are worried about me. They say I'm putting too much passion into my presentations. On top of it all, I keep trying to raise the bar on myself. And because of that...
I have had two drastic breakdowns within this month.
You think I'd learn my lesson... I am too much in love with what I'm doing. Being in this position is more than just a position to me. It's beyond the title, beyond the recognition, beyond the presentations, beyond even my own knowledge of the Filipino culture...
It's figuring out who the f*ck I am and what I'm meant to do in this world.
I hate to live passively. I hate to live for the temporary highs. I'm searching for something deep. Something genuine. Something that words just can't fully express right now... There's a beauty out there that I believe is most suitable for me. & the more I put into these presentations, the closer I feel to finding it.
If that's not reasonable enough then I can only question how you're living your life. Are you doing what you love? Are you at least working your way to get there?
I'm a girl who has to learn things the hard way. I'm self-driven. I'm stubborn. I live and breath for the extremities of life. It's how I feel most alive. Even if I am not to succeed, pain will teach me how.
I'm sorry you can't help me the way you want. This is my life. & in this current time, I'm selfish... because I'm confident about my definition of success.
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There will be moments when you will need to tone down for the better good. Trial and error shall be your guide in determining the moments.
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